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Day 1 of 100

Shirtless torso of a bearded man with colorful chest and arm tattoos, hands folded at his stomach, against black backdrop.
Day 01 / 100 Weight 354.2 high end of depressed Sony A7R5 50mm f/1.2 1/250 ISO 100
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Narration

This is the most vulnerable photo I have ever taken. I have body issues, which should come as no surprise, but I love my tattoos. And my scars. Especially the ones my cat has given me across my stomach.

In AA, there is the concept of the triangle which is the perfect balance of Mind, Body, and Spirit. For me, I strive to live in service to those things. It is clear that I am not in service to my body and have treated myself pretty badly over the years. I am focused on changing that. Moving from a frame of loss (ie. losing weight) to a frame of gain (gaining mobility). It is also the first time I actually want longevity.

My Mind is solid. I am switching meds so depression is lurking and I am hiding from mania. But it’s moving in the right direction.

My Spirit is strong. I have become skilled at (mostly) removing the noise from the messages my intuition (my higher power) is sending me. And I am less likely to sabotage myself by ignoring it.

Today was a 6/10, but I have a puppy which always is a +2 modifier.